Last Saturday morning, I sipped my coffee and ate my typical pre-race breakfast of almond butter + oatmeal. And to the pit of my stomach, I felt the race nerves building.
Here is a little confession: I was nervous for my virtual 10k I was running in a couple hours. You might think this is funny. And I can see why, but I was actually really thankful for the nerves I felt on that virtual race morning. From the outside world, it might seem strange and even silly to be nervous for a race that has no crowds or audience or big outcome. But internally, this is the greatest sign to me that I deeply care about being the best runner I can be, not because of the major marathon on the calendar or the applause of the crowds, but because I love the sport and every time I step on the line (or virtual line) I want to perform at my very best.
In college, the nerves often stemmed from a fear of disappointing my coach and my team. The pressure I felt collegiately ran deep.
The first year postpartum, the nerves stemmed from wondering if I was even that good at running anymore after a couple years off and a baby.
But last Saturday morning, the nerves were my friends. They reminded me that I care about running no matter what the stage is.
It is easy to care and be nervous and feel the adrenaline when you are running on the track with some of the best collegiate 5k runners in the region. It is easy when you have crowds cheering and yelling for you. It is easy when it feels like a big deal. But how you respond, when it is very much not a big deal, to me, that is the better indicator of your drive and motivation and love.
So those nerves Saturday morning over coffee and oatmeal, were welcomed. For those that have run virtual races in the past, you know that one of the hardest parts is not having the adrenaline of a typical race full of crowds and a big finishing line. I knew those race butterflies would be helpful to get a little adrenaline to push me through.
The nerves seemed to quickly subside when I started running. Taylor Swift’s Reputation began on shuffle right as I started my Garmin for the 6.2 miles. With music booming in my ears and the lightness of my racing flats beneath me, I focused on the back of my husband, ready for him to pull me along.
The first mile felt easy and controlled. 5:50.
Miles 2 and 3, I settled in and got comfy. 6:04 and 6:03, respectively.
Miles 4 and 5, I started feeling tired and the reality that I did not have the normal race energy and crowds to pull me through, hit me. I was suddenly made very aware that I was running through a relatively empty street. I turned Swift up a bit louder in my ears and tried to not let my husband run away from me. 6:07 and 6:06, respectively.
Mile 6, my legs came alive again. I took a quick glimpse down at my watch and knew I would definitely be under the 38-minute mark. At this point, I was definitely feeling fatigued and a bit unmotivated, but as we were getting closer to the “finish line,” I saw a group of familiar faces clapping for me. This was totally unplanned, but seeing familiar faces from the local running community, including my high school coach, who I adore and look up to, really made a difference.
With a bit of extra energy, we stopped our watches right when we hit the 6.2 mark at 37:20. Hands on knees, I smiled and high-fived my wonderful pacer.
A Year Ago
To be honest, I was hoping to be sub-37, but I was still really proud of that time. It was even more significant because almost exactly a year ago I ran LA’s Race to Remember. It was my first race back postpartum. I ended up winning the 10k with a time of 38:04. That race was really special to me. It was a reminder of my love for the sport. It was a reminder that I was not only still a runner; I was a competitor. You can read the full race recap here.
Even though this past Saturday, I did not get to run through finishing tape or get interviewed at the end, it felt like a lot of progress to be 44-seconds faster in a non-traditional race setting.
This makes me excited for future races (both virtual and in-person).
It makes me excited to keep chasing down times.
It makes me excited that my progress as a runner does not need to be dependent on a race or crowds.
I can still push myself. All I need is a watch, my flats, an empty road ahead, and my speedy husband.
Don’t get me wrong, I look forward to pushing myself on big stages, like Boston, but for now, these virtual races are a welcomed and needed friend.
Rambling Runner Virtual Race Series
Thanks to Matt Chittim from the Rambling Runner Podcast and the sponsors for making these virtual races happen. There are still two races left! The half-marathon and full-marathon. You can find all the info on how to join, right here. It has been a really key aspect to keep me focused, motivated, and excited to keep stepping out the door.
Well, a sure lot has changed in a week. Last Monday as I typed up my weekly recap, I remembered feeling concerned with a cancellation, but still confident that there would be enough time for the virus to be contained and for the race to still happen. I also was not super informed or in the know about what really was happening and the seriousness of it all. Obviously, I was wrong and the marathon has been rescheduled to September 14th.
And I have some feelings about it.
I want to start with the fact that I 100% agree and understand the postponement. I also understand that with everything going on in the world right now, the fact that the marathon I personally have been training for and dreaming about for the last year, is actually quite insignificant. Trust me, I get that there are much greater concerns and there are many people that are dealing with more significant loss and more difficult situations. Yet, my heart still feels disappointment. And I think that is okay for me to admit. It seems pretty small, but I can still be disappointed.
I keep the same Google document for all of my “Marathon Monday” posts. Even though it has been a few days to process the fact that Boston will not happen in 5 weeks, as I scrolled down my document, I did become emotional. Seeing all the numbers, the podcasts, the protein bars, and the people that played a role in the last several weeks of training, got me. I am human and quite honestly as I scrolled through I was brought back to all the miles, the sacrifice, the extra help from family and friends caring for Hudson to make this dream happen. Being brought back to this place with the knowledge that things are not going to play out the way I envisioned does make me a bit sad and makes me question well, what was even the point?
After some reflection, I can tell you this, there actually was a whole lot of purpose.
The Dream to Run the Boston Marathon
First, I want to backtrack a bit. It was actually almost exactly a year ago that the idea of running the Boston Marathon became a dream. As I have written about in the past, it was not until about a year ago that I fell back in love with the sport of running. I write all about it in this post where I recapped my first real race postpartum. I titled it “Running to Remember” because the race really was an act of remembering why I loved running in the first place.
That first race back, coupled with the buzz around the marathon, made me certain that I wanted to run the Boston Marathon. The only problem was that I needed a qualifying time before September 15th. By the time I decided this was my goal, a lot of the fast spring marathons were already happening. This is when the plan to run the San Francisco Marathon was born. Again, you can read all about what that race meant to me here. In my love for creating alliterative titles, that one was called “More than a Marathon.” It really was more than a marathon. In this marathon, I got the outcome I wanted: a BQ, however, it was the process of training and having a reason to get out the door that really brought transformation.
After qualifying and a few months of getting out of a good running rhythmn, January began the process again and I had my eyes set on a clear goal of running a sub 2:50. Even though at first, I was not feeling as excited to begin marathon training again, by February I was all in and was beginning to feel more fit and excited about the ambitious goal I had set for Boston. This training cycle I definitely struggled with energy, but as a whole I am really proud of the solid work I put in. In last week’s training, I had some of my most effortless runs and a really strong track workout.
Process Over Performance
I want to take a second to talk about that track workout. I did this workout on Wednesday. Going into the workout, things were not looking good. It was looking like the race would most likely get cancelled or postponed, but there was no official word, so we still went to the track in the evening. And I am really glad we still did.
The track is one of the most painful and beautiful things to me. Every time I do a track workout it makes my whole body hurt, but it also sharpens my brain in such a way that I often am struck with really insightful realizations in the midst of pain. I know, weird, but stay with me. This workout was no different. It hit me around the 7th interval. At this point, I was fully feeling the pain and still had 4 more 1,000’s to go. Part of me was wondering what is even the point. No coach, no team, probably no race. But the bigger part of me, refused to quit. It no longer mattered. This was about something bigger.
This whole past year of training has been about something bigger. I was determined to finish all ten of those 1,000’s. I was determined not because I had a coach pressuring me to do so or because I had a bunch of teammates that were doing it. No, I was determined to do it because I could and because I have learned that it is not always about the applause we receive or the medal we get swung over our neck, it is about the process. It is about doing hard things. It is about pushing yourself and seeing how good you can get.
Don’t get me wrong, the cheers, the finishing line, the official time, those are really nice elements to work towards, but I am convinced it is actually the process towards them that are even more important.
Boston 2020 likely won’t happen for me. As I always write about, I love to run, but it is not everything for me. Training for a marathon is a big commitment and it takes a lot of squeezing in and sacrifice. It is absolutely worth it, but I don’t think I have the mental capacity to start that cycle over again so soon. I am most certain that one day I will run it, I guess 2020 is just not my year to do it.
That is a lot of words, to ultimately say this: I am sad I won’t get to run Boston this spring, but I am ultimately really thankful for this process. Through the process, I fell back in love with running, and if I am honest, I fell back in love with myself. I know, I know. So cliche. But it is true. Life post-baby was SO HARD on my spirit. Early motherhood shook me to the core, and running came in at just the right time and helped me feel more normal again. It took my hand and gently became a dear friend again.
It put no pressure on me, it was fine with stopping, it was fine with days off, but it slowly began to reveal the pieces of myself I thought were gone were in fact still there. It showed me that I can still be competitive and serious and focused and fast, but I can do it in a way that works with my life. With that said, how can I be too sad? Boston 2020 gave me exactly what I needed, hopefully future Boston, will give me the time and the celebration. I can wait for it.
So, do I just stop training? NO. I am in really good shape right now, and I am still curious to see what kind of time I can run for a half-marathon. On April 18th, I am going to run a virtual half-marathon race. Lance is going to pace me and my goal is to run 78 minutes. More updates on this as it gets closer! Who knows if I will be able to run that pace solo outside of the race environment, but I am going to try!
To end, here are 3 major takeaways this unexpected marathon training ending has given me.
God’s plan for my life is always better.
God is working even in the hard times.
There is much more to life than the marathon.
Okay, glad I got all that out there. That is all. Now, let’s run a fast half-marathon…alone!
6 weeks out. Fitness is really beginning to develop and the realities of the race are beginning to feel more real. The past week of training was solid. There were no major bumps or extra pain. I can tell that my lungs are becoming more efficient and my legs are feeling stronger. This past week I hit 60 miles, ran a strong 6-mile tempo, and hit my longest long run by doing the Drives Loop in Palos Verdes (21 miles).
Every week it seems as though I have some major highlight and some major complaint, but this week, I really don’t. It was one of those solid weeks of training where nothing really went wrong, but there was nothing majorly exciting. It was very much a put your head down and grind it out type of week.
The workout was a good one. I actually have yet to do a tempo that long in this training block. 6 mile tempos were essentially the only workouts I did leading up to the SF Marathon. With some convincing from my coach (Lance!), he agreed to let me do an effort-based tempo. It was supposed to be more of a mile pace-changing workout, but I was feeling pretty tired heading into the workout, and it felt like my body could really use a nice steady state run with minimal looking down at the Garmin. It felt so nice to just run for 6 miles based on my effort. I rarely looked down at the Garmin and pace was all under goal race pace, so to me that was a success.
8 miles with jogger on strand
7 solo park loop miles
10 miles with 6 mile tempo (6:09, 6:23, 6:28, 6:17, 6:26, 6:18)
8 miles with jogger on strand
6 solo miles on the road
21 miles on the Drives. Hilly loop in Palos Verdes with very few stops. I felt strong. I only did this course one time in last training cycle. I was hoping to be quite a bit faster, but was only about 1-minute faster. But hey, I’ll take a minute. We also stopped way less than last time.
What I am Listening To
I spent most of my runs listening to recaps of the Olympic Trials. Of all the recaps I listened to, the one that definitely hit me the hardest was Sarah Bishop’s interview on The Road to the Olympic Trials. I have mentioned my love of her before on this blog, but this interview was so emotional and resonated so strongly as another mom who at times struggles with the guilt of chasing after running goals and dreams. It was so beautifully captured and it literally made me cry as I was running through the foggy roads at 6 am in the morning. This is worth a listen.
Also on the topic of the trials, I was really moved by Molly Seidel’s performance of making the team and getting second place in her debut marathon performance. I wanted to listen to a podcast interview with her and discovered the Running on Om Podcast. This episode with Molly was recorded over a month prior to the trials. The podcast episode was made even more powerful as I knew how the story went with her making the U.S. marathon team. All of her struggles with depression and an eating disorder were parts of her story that I was unaware of. It was a really powerful episode showing that the external success we see does not always tell the whole story.
“You need to be mentally well in order to run your best. Winning these titles in of themselves mean nothing. Like I was unhappier than I’ve ever been probably after those two national championships, it just felt like nothing. And like some of the greatest joys in my life have come after races that I didn’t even necessarily do that well, but you have people surrounding your life that you care about and your body feels good and just like things that bring you joy.” -Molly Seidel
Beet Juice from Trader Joe’s. In college, I always got beet juice the day before a big race. I am pretty sure it makes you faster!
“Orange Crush” this was the name of the pressed juice, Hudson and I shared after our Thursday run. It was from a juice and vegan foods stand at the farmer’s market and it was the most delicious juice I have ever had. It was an immunity blend with turmeric, ginger, mango, oranges.
More berry crisp.
Spicy Mendocino Farms sandwich post-long run.
Earlier to bed
Staying inside more. Typically, I try to do a lot of things outdoors with Hudson. Training has definitely hit my body and I am finding that it is really helpful to keep our days more simple. It basically has looked like this: run, small outing, nap, stay inside, bed. I really can tell overexerting myself affects how I feel on my run and my attitude towards L + H. Working on keeping our days as simple as possible until race day.
Yoga membership is officially done, so no more strength classes!
At this point, my cross-training truly is pushing the stroller (great for core) and chasing and lifting and playing with a 21-month old during the day. Not your typical cross-training, but I truly feel like just living out my life outside of running keeps me moving and gets me strong.
It has been fun to do planks and band exercises with Hudson on the mornings I run early. It doesn’t last long, but it is so cute to see him trying to mimic the exercises I do. He actually has pretty good form when he attempts a plank. This is a total side tangent, but one of the many things I love about marathon training is that it is setting an example to Hudson. I love that he gets to first-hand witness the hard work that mommy puts in. I love how he gets to watch us pass guy runners on the strand. I love how mommy can be the one that cares for him, but also the one that chases her own dreams.
What I Keep Telling Myself
Press In. Press In. Press In.
Maybe it is all the pressed juice I have been consuming, but there has been something about this word of “press” that has really resonated with me during this training block. When I was beginning to get the tinges of being uncomfortable during the end of my tempo, the words press in got me to lean in a bit more and dig a bit deeper. When I was in the last 10 k of my 21 miler on Saturday and my hips were again on fire, press in got me to stay mentally in it.
It is easy to check out the moment things get tough or uncomfortable or too hard. This mantra of press in is changing things for me. It is acknowledging that yes, this is in fact hard, but it also is saying I am not afraid of it and I want to see what I can do in these hard places. This is the mentality that great marathon times are made of. Press in is carrying me through these last 6 weeks of training.
The Long Run
For this week’s long run, I ran the Drives Loop in Palos Verdes, which is one big loop that is 21 miles long. I actually really enjoy this loop because it is challenging with lots of rolling hills. There is something about running one big loop that mentally actually makes the whole run feel not as long. I also had a sweet running friend agree to meet me three miles in and run 18 out of the 21 miles with me, which was so nice of her and made 21 feel way less lonely.
Overall, I felt really strong and controlled. The hills still felt challenging and the last 5 miles or so my legs definitely got the fire, painful feeling, but as a whole it was a good run.
This loop ends on a downhill, which is my favorite way to end a run. It felt good to let go in that final mile and get some faster turnover in.
I did not do an intentional workout in this long run. To me, this course and the length is enough work, but I tried to stay as steady as possible.
In terms of nutrition for this long run, we just ran out of our Maurten Gels, so had to use Honey Stinger Energy Chews. Not my first choice, but Target has a really terrible selection of energy gels. It worked well though and settled in my stomach fine. Continuing to practice taking the Salt Stick Fast Chews towards the end of these long runs and loving the extra kick it gives me when electrolytes are low.
Here are the stats:
2 hours 37 minutes
7:30 per mile
Mile 11 and mile 21 were the fastest in 6:50 and 6:51
Another week of training in the books. This week did not feel particularly good, but I hit most weekly mileage for this training block, made it into 2 strength classes with Petra, and had a solid 20-miler. So while things did not feel great (low energy, throbbing legs, tender toenails), hard things still got done. This past week felt like an important week of pushing through and getting some solid work in. I know there are really only a few solid more weeks left of really hard training before the taper will begin. I want to take full advantage of this time to push myself and run hard and long.
Even as I type up this recap, I can tell my enthusiasm and motivation to do so is a bit lower than it was last week. Last week, I just wrapped up a great week of training where I felt amazing. This week is a different story. My toenails feel like they are going to fall off. My head feels foggy and tired. The fatigue is really beginning to set in. With that said, I am going to keep this short and sweet so I can maybe lay down for a few minutes before Hudson wakes up!
8 miles on the strand with jogger
7 solo park loop miles
10 miles with a workout (3 miles of slightly faster than goal race pace, 6:15ish + 4 x 1 K, these were supposed to be 5:40ish pace, but I was dying and did not hit pace)
8 miles on the strand with jogger
6 solo park loop miles
20 miles! Solo. Headphones made it a bit less lonely. This one hurt, but after the fact, I was pleased when I saw overall stats for the run. More on this at the end!
The only part I want to expand on is that Wednesday workout. I am the type of person that hates changing a workout. I am pretty determined to hit all my splits and finish a workout in its entirety. This was not the case for that Wednesday. It was supposed to be 5 Ks, but I texted Lance after 3 and asked him what I should do since I was dying. I was already way off pace and felt empty. I ended up doing one more and calling it a day after 4. This is so not me to cut it short, but I also know my body really well and on that day, my body was done. There was nothing left. After recovering for a couple miles on the way home, I tried doing some pick-up 100 meters to make for the shortened workout, but even that felt hard.
Besides the fact that my body is still adjusting to more mileage, it was also super hot out (hello, February in Southern California) and I am not very good at changing pace. The 3 mile tempo part felt totally fine. It was right when I started the thousands that my legs felt like bricks. I need to work on getting better at changing gears.
What I am Listening To
I listened to a lot of different interviews this past week. There were a lot of solo miles with headphones. Of everything I listened to there was only one episode that really stuck with me and inspired me. It was an interview with Veronica Jackson and Alex Bernardi on the Ali on the Run Show. They both ran at the trials! They are two friends that pushed each other to believe in this shared goal of qualifying amidst full-time jobs and families. I love their story. I love their dedication to dream big together. This episode was a treat to listen to and it made me really want to find a group like the women that run at 5:45 in Central Park. Maybe, we just need to move to New York.
How I am Fueling
Really it is all the same. The only thing I need to add is Trader Joe’s cold brew latte dessert bars made the perfect mid-afternoon pick me up as my energy was really dragging in this hot week of training.
Also, salt sticks, which I mentioned last week, has been a real game changer for me on my long runs.
Stretching at parks, while Hudson plays
Bowling? After our 20 miler, we bowled with Grandma Jo! It was a good reminder why I run and I don’t bowl.
Clearly, not a whole lot of recovery being done. I really need to commit to rolling before bed.
2 strength classes with Petra. This will probably be my last week of these classes, since my membership just ended. I am likely not going to renew it. I am going to have to figure out a way to supplement these classes in the weeks of training ahead. This will probably involve some creativity and planks in our living room.
What I Keep Telling Myself
You will eventually feel good.
This was not my week. Things are hurting. The workout nearly killed me. However, I still have confidence that fitness will come together in the remaining weeks and I will eventually wake up actually feeling good! The time will come.
Also, telling myself that the whole Boston experience is going to be so much fun. It is beginning to feel closer and both Lance and I are getting more excited. We both will have family coming to watch, which is super special and just last week, we all got tickets to a Red Sox game. Maybe not the best pre-race activity for a pro, but hey, that is not us, so anything goes, really.
High + Low
Hudson has finally gotten used to being back in the jogger and he has been an angel on our 8 milers. My pace has been real SLOW on these jogger runs, so he has been extra patient to hang out in jogger for a bit over an hour.
20 miles! It did not feel perfect, but 20 miles is 20 miles. It always feels like an accomplishment to get these 20 miler training runs in.
The Long Run
This long run was a bit different from the typical one. Since family friends were watching Hudson, we decided to save a bit of time and run from their place in Hermosa Beach and just go out 10 miles and back 10 miles. From Hermosa, we both made it pretty far into Palos Verdes.
The run itself was a good mixture of flat, road surfaces and hilly trails. It was a bit lonely, since we both did the run solo, but I think it built some good mental toughness.
The last few miles were definitely a bit painful. My hips felt like they were on fire. I pushed through and even got some faster mile splits in as I was on a flat surface. While, I chose to not do an intentional workout, I did focus on staying as controlled as possible and getting faster in the last half.
Here are the stats:
2 hours 31 minutes
7:34 minutes/mile average.
Fastest mile was the 19th mile at 6:36.
Okay, I am exhausted. This is all I got for this week. Hopefully next week I can report with a bit more energy and enthusiasm!
Things are finally feeling like they are coming together fitness wise. This past week of training, a lot of the pain from last week went away and I was left feeling really strong.
This was a solid week of training. I think the slight down week with a shorter long run last week, helped my body recover. I hit 55 miles and ran my longest run of this training block. The Wednesday workout really surprised me and faster pace came more naturally. The workout was a huge confidence builder and it made me feel like my 2:48 goal is indeed possible.
This week, running came easily. The miles flowed together without a ton of resistance on my part. Things did not feel like quite a struggle compared to the previous week. This week, I felt like I was doing exactly what I was made to do.
As much as I sometimes fight against going out on a run or getting a hard workout in, there is no denying that running is the place I feel most at home and confident.
I was reminded of this during my workout on Wednesday. Prior to this workout, I was feeling a bit all over the place. The house was a disaster. The body felt tired and unmotivated. The baby was vying for my attention and I felt distracted.
This is the headspace I was in when I started my workout. It was in the middle of mile repeats that I hit a stride. Suddenly, the mess, the tiredness, the distraction, all melted away. I felt laser-focused. Everything within the home that was pulling at me, mattered a bit less. All that I saw was the next mile before me: each one clicking away. These sub-6 consecutive miles did not feel nearly as hard as I was expecting. It felt like I was made for them. My training so far made these mile repeats actually feel fun. It felt, in a weird way, like medicine. The very thing my body and mind needed.
Find your mile repeats. For you, it might not look like running hard miles on the strand and obsessively checking your watch. For you, it might be in the kitchen as you whip together a Baked Alaska. For you, it might be behind a canvas with a paintbrush in hand. For you, it might be in the garden. Whatever, it is, find your space where you can feel at home, confident in doing hard things. Find your own mile repeats that can remind you of your strengths. The mess at home will slowly melt away. Something changes when I am out there running hard miles. The mom hat is off. It is just me, the road, and the clock. I can run with a freedom in being able to push myself as I lean into the gifts God handpicked for me.
Clearly, I had a good week with running. Let’s get into the details.
7 miles on the road with the jogger.
6 solo park loop miles
10 mile workout with 4 x mile on the strand with ¼ mile recovery (5:52, 5:45, 5:53, 5:56). Felt STRONG. This was a big confidence building workout for me. These were done solo and of course I was working hard, but they felt much more natural than I was expecting. This got me feeling more excited for what is possible.
8 miles with jogger on the strand
6 solo park loop miles
18 miles on Quarter Horse (HILLY!) in PV
What I am Listening To
This week is the week leading to the Marathon Olympic Trials in Atlanta! 4 years ago, the trials were held in Los Angeles. Lance and I, along with some LMU teammates went to watch it. At the time, I was really not into marathoning or even knew much about the process of qualifying for the trials. I wish I would have appreciated the opportunity to watch those trials more. While we are not going to Atlanta, we are excited to watch the trials from home. Naturally, a lot of what I was listening to on the run revolved around that upcoming race in Atlanta. Here are some that stuck out to me:
Sarah Bishop’s interview on The Road to the Olympic Trials. Sarah really pumps me up anytime I listen to her interviews. First, she is a mom to 4, which I am so inspired by. Second, she is so fearless in stating ambitious goals and making them happen. It really struck me that her plan going into the trials is to run a marathon and then fly to New Zealand to do a triathlon. Definitely not normal, but I loved her confidence in owning that this was the plan that she wanted to pursue. In the interview she talked about her goal of breaking 2:40 in the Mesa Marathon, which was the following weekend. It gave me chills when Matt at the end of the interview said how she met her goal by running a 2:39. Not to mention, she won the whole thing. I love this so much. It inspires me to be more bold in my running goals.
Not related to the trials at all, but I also very much enjoyed an interview with Andrea Barber (aka Kimmy Gibbler from Full House) on the Ali on the Run Show. It was such an interesting conversation and I had no idea she was also a runner. It made park loops this week go by faster.
And of course, Taylor Swift was on shuffle for those mile repeats.
How I am Fueling
Mid-week, I felt like baking and something sweet, yet healthy. I made a berry crisp. This is literally the simplest recipe! I got it from Shauna Niequist’s amazing book, Bread and Wine. You can find the recipe here. It is the simplest ingredients that I almost always have in my pantry and it literally takes minutes to whip together and then pop in the oven. This was good fuel to pull Lance and I into the weekend. Confession: the two of us literally ate the whole pan of crisp.
Post-18 miles I tried a new pancake recipe that was a hit. We are big Coach’s Oats fans over here. It is what I eat every morning before I run. It is also the oatmeal I used in the berry crisp. I got this peanut butter pancake recipe from their website. It was so good. I added some chocolate chips, which I would definitely recommend. Also, replaced the regular milk for almond milk. There is no sugar, maple syrup instead and the peanut butter adds a nice nutty, sweetness. It was the perfect pancake post-long run. The recipe doesn’t make much batter, so I would double it.
Salt Sticks (took a couple of these during the long run and loved them)
This week, I was forced to slow down and not go to as intense of workout classes. It was probably for the best, but it was not part of my plan. My typical class with Petra was already full by the time I got there, so it forced me to go to a yoga class. I was feeling a TON of shoulder/neck tightness and pain. In the class, we used blocks to focus on this area, so it was actually exactly what I needed.
Thursday, Lance had a meeting, so I could not make it to class, so instead did 10-minutes of my own strength work in the living room. It consisted of band work to strengthen my ever-so-weak glutes and some planks or attempted planks. Hudson was climbing all over me and sitting on my back, so that made it a bit more challenging. Not perfect, but hey, 10-minutes of strength is always better than zero.
Friday, I made it to another yoga class. Again, not as intense as I like it, but got some much needed hip stretching in. This could very much have been the key to the long run feeling so good.
What I Keep Telling Myself
8 weeks is still a ton of time to build fitness.
It is also a ton of time to get burnt out and get injured. I am still dealing with some major mileage comparison, but I was reminded this week that I actually am in a really great place fitness wise. I definitely need more time, but 8 weeks truly is a ton of time to grow in fitness. This excites me.
High + Low
Miles don’t feel as hard
Confidence building workout
Berry Crisp + peanut butter pancakes
Comparing my mileage to others and getting mental about it. I need to stop it!
Not making it into Petra’s classes this week
The Long Run
This was the longest run this training block and it felt great. First few miles had some pretty steep uphill trails, but even on the uphill I felt strong. It really was not until about mile 16 that my legs tightened up a bit and I was reminded that I was running long. To me, that is a sign that I have not done enough long runs yet. And I haven’t, but I still have a few weeks to get in a few more good long runs.
The other thing I noticed, actually both Lance and I noticed this, was that we felt really good right after. Usually, it takes awhile to recover after a really long run, but almost instantly after stopping, my legs and lungs felt weirdly good. Again, this makes me feel excited for April 20th.
This week of training, I struggled with some doubt and body pain, but ended the week with greater confidence. It is amazing how in one mile of a marathon you feel terrible and are questioning everything and the next you feel like you could run that pace forever. Things change quickly in marathon racing. You go through so many different emotions in the course of 26.2 miles.
Last week of training, reminded me of how fast things can change, even when it comes to training. It reminded me to not get overly concerned when I have one bad day of training. Early on in the week, I really struggled with body fatigue and foot/hip pain. These aches and pains are all too familiar. The good thing about now running for over a decade of my life is that I am very attuned to how my body works. I know exactly what I need to do when I start feeling hip or foot pain. Maybe this is the reason the pain does not seem to linger too long. At least not for this week.
Tuesday, I felt literally terrible. However, by Thursday, my body felt entirely different and my 8-mile run did not feel nearly as painful. Things change quickly. Painful days and the days full of doubt don’t last forever.
The interesting thing with feeling so terrible is that last week was actually a slight down week. We have been slowly building since January, so this week was a 4-mile drop. I have noticed that in down weeks, my body usually doesn’t feel the greatest. This pattern also helps me not feel overly concerned with the lower engery and pain I experienced in the past week.
The doubt of questioning my goal time, mostly came out during my Wednesday workout where pace simply felt way harder than I was expecting. Doubt is something I really struggle with on and off the run. It is werid to even admit this because faith is such a large part of my life and who I am. Faith in God and faith that He has me in His hands comes much more naturally to me (all thanks to grace). The doubt is more in the form of doubting myself. I trust God with my whole heart, but it is my own abilities that I often lack faith in. She is faster. She is smarter. She is better. A small glimpse of the dialogue that is contantly running in my head. Not to get overly reflective and spiritual, but I do believe the Lord uses running in my life as a way to help me work through these seeds of self-doubt.
I want to believe that a 2:48 or faster is possible. I want to believe that I am in good fitness. I want to believe that I can be competitive come race day.
6 miles with the jogger
6 miles solo
10 miles. 3 mile warm-up, 3 miles of 20-seconds faster than goal race pace, 4 mile cool-down. 6:02, 6:10, 6:09 (supposed to be all 6-flat). At least, I tried. Also after a mile, I was fully recovered, so this is still an encouragement!
8 miles with the jogger
5 miles solo
14 miles with Lance with 3 miles thrown in at slightly faster than race pace
Still dealing with some mileage comparison and anxiety that I am too low in mileage. I trust Lance and I know he knows me best when it comes to running. Mileage is not crazy high, but I know the quality of work is good. And there is still so much time to build and get those 20-milers in.
What I am Listening To
Last week of training, I spent most of my miles listening to the “Love on the Run” series of Ali’s show. She released a new episode each day of last week with an interview with a professional running couple. I loved it!
I especially enjoyed the conversation with Aisha Praught and Will Leer. They might be way faster, but even professional runners struggle with being annoyed at each other on the run. For Lance and I, we have had way too many fights (always revolved around pace being too fast) while running together, so this very much resonated with me.
I also loved the conversation with Steph and Ben Bruce. I am such a Steph Bruce fan and especially loved hearing from both of them. I am definitely inspired by the way their marriage really functions as them being such a team on and off the course.
How I am Fueling
Heart-shaped sugar cookies and chocolate (the best part of running just for fun: no limits on sugar cookies)
Post-long run sushi!
This week, I really focused on my feet! Pain in my feet have really flared up (I am pretty sure I have a bone spur in my left foot). If you were to look at my feet, you would probably be deeply concerned. They are not looking so hot right now. The left foot is in especially bad shape with what looks like a bone spur and a good sized blood blister. All this to say, my feet hurt. My strength teacher I go to, used to be a dancer, so she had a lot of good foot exercises for me to do.
Rolling out with a ball and/or frozen water bottle.
Foot strengthening exercises, like using toes to grab towel. This basically just gets me to curl my toes and I can tell this is drastically helping.
Yoga toes almost every night seems to also be providing relief.
Along with foot recovery, also got some jacuzzi and pool time in after our long run at the hotel we were staying at. We basically went back and forth from the hot tub to the pool. In the pool, we swam and kicked our legs around. It felt so good after our long run earlier that morning. Perfect afternoon recovery.
Continuing with my 2 strength classes per week. My goal for the coming week is to start incorporating more plank work. Hopefully that will happen!
What I Keep Telling Myself
The pain is temporary. The pain is temporary. The pain is temporary.
This week hurt. It is easy for me to let the pain takeover my mind. I am really trying to focus on the fact that it is temporary. Whether it was a regular run dealing with overall body fatigue or a tempo that felt uncomfortable, my brain needed to remember that it is temporary. The workout on Wednesday was initially discouraging to me because I did not hit the right pace. I also ended with hands on my knees, breathing HARD. This was just about 14-seconds off my goal race pace. That really shook me. This should feel WAY easier! I focused too much on the pain, I do wish I could have dug in a bit more and remembered the pain is only temporary. Next time.
High + Low
Long run with Lance
Completing the workout, even though I almost stopped when I was hurting and off pace.
Overall body pain and fatigue
Feet really hurt!
Tempo pace is feeling harder than I would like.
The Long Run
It is funny how your perspective with mileage really begins to change as you begin marathon training. 14 miles right now feels like not even a legit long run. As I mentioned above, this was a down week. Especially after a week of not feeling great, it was good timing to have a shorter long run. Lance and I went on a staycation in Newport Beach last Saturday, so we ran in Orange County, instead of our typical PV long run. We ran at Aliso Woods Canyon. This is a beautiful trail and one of my favorite spots to run when we are further south. We even saw deers on the trail! Since it was a shorter run, Lance decided to run with me. We actually did not have a single argument on our run, which is a big deal. It was a great way to start off our weekend together!
It turned out to be a nice run, especially on the way back. It was not as hilly and the last few miles we stuck to the road and Lance paced a portion at my goal race pace (6:24). He paced it perfectly, despite me complaining all 3 miles of it telling him it was too fast at parts and too slow at parts. Even though I grumbled through it, those 3 miles at race pace were a good encouragement to me. For most of it, my breathing was extremely controlled and conversational. We hit a 6:21, 6:22, and 6:14. Even in just these 3 miles that would still give me 15 seconds of wiggle room.
The thing I love about running, is that it almost always seems to be teaching me something that goes far beyond the miles on the road. Of all the things running has taught me so far, the biggest lessons are in commitment and discipline. On the windiest days when you are pushing the jogger into a literal wall of wind. On the days where your whole body is aching and the thought of cutting those 17 miles down keeps cropping up in your head. On the days where stepping out the door feels like a great mental battle. It is on these days where you still show up, still follow-through, that the real training begins.
This past week of training was the first week where I really struggled to hit my mileage. The excitement of the early stage of marathon training has already faded within me and I have been hit with the reality of the simple fact: training for a marathon is hard work. Just like an actual marathon, it is those first miles that are easy and fun. Then somewhere in the middle, you are hit with the reality that you still have 13 miles to go and things become a little less fun. I am officially over the honeymoon stage of marathon training and not quite yet at the exciting tapering stage. This in-between spot of training can be tough: mileage is increasing, workout intensity is increasing, and long runs are increasing. The finish line still feels far away. 10 weeks is a bit too long to get super excited. All this to say, last week was a good week in training in the sense that even when I wasn’t feeling it, I pushed through.
I can get so obsessed with what my Garmin tells me. I want to hit the exact mileage every single time. I want to be within a pace frame. I want to hit my faster miles when I am doing a workout. This past week, my garmin was not my friend. It died on runs. I forgot to start it after stopping it. It kept telling me “6:10” when all I wanted to see was “6:00.” It told me “12” when I still had 5 more miles.
With all these Garmin issues, this week I learned to be okay with being flexible. I stopped when I knew I was right around 8 miles, even though my Garmin told me otherwise. I was okay with that 6:07 mile that was supposed to be 6 flat. I stopped at 6 miles on the windiest running day of my life as Hudson just kept screaming. I am all about pushing through, but sometimes when there is another little guy involved, you have to stop. Similarly to what I wrote about last week, things don’t revolve around me as the runner, but as the mom that runs, which is very different. Cutting weekly mileage by 2 miles seems like no big deal, but it really bothered me. I was planning on running 2 miles sometime later in day, but it just never happened and I never had the time to add it on to the other mileage in the week. 2 miles will not kill my training.
So, in that case I adjusted, but later in the week on the long run when I was dying at mile 12, I pushed through and hit the 17 miles. It is all about knowing when to push and when to stop. Monday, I needed to stop. Saturday, I needed to push.
This is a lot of reflection to say one thing: running felt hard last week. Once I hit 50 + miles, all my typical issues start rolling in. My mind starts telling me how tired I am. My right leg starts flaring up. My right hip starts tightening up. My feet start feeling extra fragile. It is on weeks like this, that the commitment and discipline start to really develop and for that, this week of training can still be deemed as a good week.
53 miles was spread out like this:
6 miles in the WIND with JOGGER. Big mistake.
6 miles of park loops solo.
10 miles with 2 miles at race pace and one mile faster.
8 miles with jogger. Long. Some extra cardio involved as I had to sing to H to stop some of the crying. Running with a jogger is WORK!
6 miles of park loops solo.
The big 17 miler with lots of uphill trails.
One quick tangent on mileage. This week, I was hit with mile comparison. Sounds weird, but this is totally a thing. Let me explain. I was listening to a podcast interview with this one runner who was trying to get an OTQ last fall. She talked about running 90 mile weeks and how this is basically the mileage you need to hit to be super competitive in the marathon. This got me feeling a bit panicky. I am still building in mileage, but even in my peak for this training cycle I will not be anywhere close to 90 mile weeks. For one, I feel like I would really struggle being present to Hudson and secondly, I know my body pretty well and I think that would put it over the edge.
I was struck with the fact that mileage comparison can even steal your joy when it comes to running. The doubt immediately began to sink in and I began to question if some of my future running goals are even possible with running 60-70 miles at my very peak. All this to say, weekly mileage is such a personal thing. The numbers that work for one person, might be way too little or way too much for the next. Run your mileage. Do workouts that make sense for your season. Don’t get too focused on what all the other fast people are doing.
What I am Listening to
Not as much to say in this section this week. Nothing that really stuck in my mind like previous weeks. I will say, I had one solo run where I could not find my phone so just had a silent sunrise run and it was refreshing. Especially with all the noise in my days, it is necessary to have some runs with nothing going on in the background.
More so than the podcasts I listened to, some of the conversations I had on the run stick out even more. With all the solo running I do, I am always thankful for the miles that are made up with conversation and company.
Things are beginning to hurt. Recovery is becoming more and more important. As I alluded to before, when my run is done, I need to jump into mom things and don’t have a ton of recovery time. With that said, here are a few things I have been doing this week to recover:
Hot showers. I know, weird type of recovery, but hey it’s practicable. The heat helps with my muscle tightness.
Epsom salt baths every Sunday night.
Lower back pain and tight hip flexors has brought me back to rolling out before bed.
Two words: Yoga Toes. I have used these for years. I put them on for a few minutes before bed. I deal with a lot of foot pain and have a pretty bad bunion, so the yoga toes really helps provide needed relief!
Naps. Usually only get one per week, but this weekly nap really helps with my energy levels.
The same. I realized on my long run that my usual weak glutes are beginning to affect my hip flexors and lower back. Hoping that continuing to go to Petra’s strength classes will help my very, very weak glutes. I am planning on incorporating even just 5 minutes every other day at home to use the bands and do some targeted glute strengthening exercises.
What I Keep Telling Myself
Stay in it. Stay in it. Stay in it.
This might be the mantra for Boston. We will see. This is what I said when I kept looking down and seemed to not be able to break that 6:10 barrier on my tempo. This is what I told myself at mile 12 when I wanted to cut the long run short. Stay in it. Yes, physically, but more so mentally. When the pain sets in and things start to get really hard, it is easy for me to check out. I really want to focus on this and stay in it, mentally, even when the pain starts to settle in.
I am already picturing myself running up Heartbreak Hill and the words: stay in it, stay in it are pounding in my head and propelling me up.
High + Low
Pushing through and running 17 miles.
Wednesday workout and feeling controlled and confident.
Monday’s run in the wind and my sister and mom having to pick us up! True story.
The last painful few miles of my long run.
Overall more tired and less excited.
The Long Run
17 miler in Palos Verdes on Telephone Trail. This is the last long run I will run on this trail. There is so much soft-surface uphill. It is brutal. There is also a lot of rocky trails and I almost rolled my ankle multiple times. These early hard miles put a greater fatigue on my body and made the final miles a real challenge for me.
Even though it was a bit painful, I am proud I finished it. I was very close to rounding up. It will be nice to drop a bit next week and come back in two Saturdays and run an 18-miler and then the big 2-0.
The long run in numbers (there was a a few meters that I forgot to start up Garmin again, but I did do 17, I promise!)
Another week of training in the books! This past week of training was good and consistent, but did take a weird turn with the long run, which I will explain at the end.
It was a week marked by 50 miles, stroller runs, tempos that felt like I was running faster than my Garmin told me, graham cracker snacking in the middle of the night, and a strange 16-miler that was fueled by kid’s fruit snacks- but hey at least it was organic!
The main take-away from training this week, is the reminder that I want to take this training block as seriously as possible, but this is also not my main priority. I am a mom first, running quite honestly comes after quite a lot of things. And this is exactly the way I want it to be, but it means training will simply look quite different for me.
I will always make the mileage for that week happen. If Lance says I have 50 miles, I will run 50 miles, but it is more of a squeezing in, rather than a true incorporating. For example, I will make arrangements to get that 10-mile tempo in and I will do my best to recover by drinking coconut water and devouring a protein bar quickly, but then the day will progress and we will run around at the park and check-out stacks of library books. There will not be an elaborate stretch routine or an ice bath or rolling right after the fact. When my garmin beeps and I hit my daily mileage, my mom hat goes right back on. My days revolve around Hudson, not my runs.
Weekly mileage looked like this:
7 miles with the jogger
5 miles solo
10 miles with 4 miles in the middle at goal race race solo
7 miles with the jogger
5 miles with the jogger
16 miles solo with 2 X 2 mile pick-ups on 8 miles back
As a whole, all the runs felt pretty good and I definitely am continuing to feel more fit. The race pace work is still not feeling as comfortable as I would like. On Wednesday, it literally felt like I was flying, but then my Garmin told me numbers that were not as exciting. Like I wrote about last week, the fast and thrilling miles are coming. I am just not quite there yet.
What I am Listening to
This past week did my similar soundtrack of running podcasts for the easy miles + Taylor Swift for race pace miles. Side-note: I am in the midst of watching the Taylor Swift documentary, Miss Americana and I am so intrigued and moved by it. But that is another story, let’s get back to my soundtrack on the road. Here are a few of the podcast episodes that really stuck out to me this week:
This is a really great and motivating episode for a longer run. It is about an hour and 30 minutes long. There was a lot that I really loved in this episode. I loved how she ran a 2:42 and got that OTQ. The part that really resonated with me was within the last 7-minutes. She talks about running with joy and the motivation to keep training and chasing goals when running is not your job. She talks about the girls she trained with and did park loops with in the mornings and all the people that made her goal happen. Listen to this whole episode, but especially listen to those last few minutes. I was heading back from my tempo and her words struck such a cord. I want to run with greater joy as I train for Boston and appreciate running’s place in my life right now, and not run out of obligation or guilt.
I listened to this episode on parts of my long run and again was very much motivated by Sarah’s story. I love a good running story, but I especially love it from the perspective of a mom with a full-time job and a lot going on. As I was climbing a dirt trail from Malaga, she said something that I loved and felt very deeply as well. She talked about how postpartum, running was not an option for her, it was a necessity. It wasn’t something that she should try to make happen, it was a non-negotiable. The thing that made her more herself.
I love her grit and determination to make things happen, even with less than ideal schedules and a big family. I could go on and on. Sarah’s discipline and overall enthusiasm for getting better, will be yet another story I will certainly carry with me into Boston.
I loved this particular interview with Neely because not only did it focus on her getting the OTQ at Houston, it focused on the struggles that come with postpartum running. I really appreciated Neely’s perspective of openly sharing how difficult it was even as a professional runner to get back into running after baby. This particular episode was so good and raw and very much mother runner focused, which I always love.
If you haven’t noticed, I really only listen to two different podcasts on my runs. It felt like a special treat when I was going out for my Friday run and saw this new monthly series that my two favorite running podcasts hosts will be doing together. I really enjoyed listening to this conversation. It was a perfect collision of two worlds and the perfect way to spend my Friday park loops.
How I am Fueling
This week I hit 50 and my body just wants to eat and eat and eat. I have had an insatiable hunger all week. I even woke up in the middle of the night feeling so hungry that I literally had to make myself a midnight snack.
Continuing to hydrate with coconut water, which is my new obsession.
Trying to avoid coffee in the afternoon, so I have been mixing it up with an occasional Health Ade Kombucha in the afternoon for a pick-me up + probiotics. Currently loving the Tropical Punch flavor.
I love Maurten Gels for long runs, but I totally spaced and left my Maurten in the car this past Saturday, so I had to take Hudson’s organic fruit gummy pack at mile 10, which I would not recommend. At least I got some sugar to get me through the last 6 miles!
Food wise, nothing new, but definitely have been trying to incorporate a bit more red meat as mileage in increasing. We did ground beef burgers one night + steak salad another.
When I am Running
Sticking with the normal routine. Trying to get out the door when I have my runs with Hudson as soon as possible. It has been really nice to get the run in before 10 am and then end with some time to play at the park. The quicker we get out the door and make it happen, the better.
Same as last week! This week, I was sore from Petra’s strength class, which makes me excited! I know this extra strength work will be the difference from a good and great result. It is not super exciting getting to the studio at 6 pm, especially as I am beginning to get more tired from the mileage, but I know this stuff is important. Also still very much enjoying restorative yoga Friday nights. This week, I did not fall asleep in class, so I am taking that as a good sign that my body is recovering quicker!
What I Keep Telling Myself
Run your pace, run your pace, run your pace.
It is easy to get caught up when a fast song comes on or you hear paces other people are running or that person passes you on the strand and you feel that urge to shift gears.
I take a lot of pride in knowing my body really well when it comes to running: I know my limits and I know the pace that makes sense. Right now in training, I am hyper-focused on that goal time of 2:48 and 6:24 pace. As I run workouts, I literally see these numbers in bright red lights. It is really motivating and pulling me through the miles.
I have never been number-goal oriented, but this goal time and the pace that goes with it is really keeping me focused. I know with almost certainty that there will be a great temptation to run way too fast at the start of Boston, so hoping this focus on my pace will keep me from blowing up.
High + Low
Hitting 50 miles
Knee has healed
Hudson has been pretty good for our stroller runs
Beautiful 16 mile long run
Mid-week 10 miler with 4 miles at race pace. It felt good to get a 10-miler done during the week, even though the tempo part did not feel as easy as I would have liked.
Post-long run. I will explain below.
The Long Run
When both you and your husband are training, long runs can be logistical challenges with kids. It is way too long for Hudson to be in the jogger, so we usually drop him off at my parents’ house. This past Saturday they were out of town, so we developed a plan.
Lance would leave early and run 8-10 miles solo and then meet me back at the park. I would give him Hudson and he would finish his run with the jogger, as I did my 16 mile route out and back.
The plan actually worked really well.
I started my run from Valley Park and ran 3 miles with Lance and Hudson. He flipped it and I continued to go out. We usually do our long runs in PV, but it was actually really fun to start in Hermosa and make it all the way out to the trail cliffs in Palos Verdes, since I had to go out 8 miles. It was also nice to get in some dirt. Not to mention, Saturday morning was absolutely gorgeous.
As I was heading back down, I stopped at mile 10, took those fruit gummy snacks and began a couple miles at goal race pace. Those two miles actually felt great and I was surprised that going back down to race pace felt pretty natural even at mile 10 (I literally hit exactly 6:24, which was encouraging).
Towards the end of that 2 mile segment, I was feeling fatigued, so I stopped and ran half a mile at normal long run pace. After this half mile of recovery, ran 2 more miles with the aim to be at race pace. I was slightly off, but it was a good two miles of staying mentally tough as my legs were really beginning to fatigue as it has been months since I have run this long and at that type of pace. This run really worked my legs, but it also was key in building a mental toughness, that I will absolutely carry with me to Boston.
Overall, great long run.
Then, it took a turn as within 5-minutes of coming home, Hudson tripped on a rug and his sippy cup split his head. With blood on my shirt, we rushed to the ER, only to wait hours before the stitches.
Normally, I would like to think I would handle this situation better, but a 16-mile workout does not set you up to be in the best state for waiting in an ER with your baby. I definitely did not fuel properly after this long run. I had grand plans of a big egg and bacon breakfast when I got home, but that quickly changed. So the long run started great, but then quickly went downhill and was fueled by stress and waiting and cookies. Hey, not every post-run will be ideal recovery. Things will be okay.
And Hudson now has 5 stitches and is totally fine and looks extra tough!
If you are still with me and curious, here is my long run in numbers:
In college, of all the responsibilities that came with collegiate running, the thing I always dreaded most was keeping up a training log. I hated the pressure of remembering to log my mileage, cross-training, and comments every single day. Some runners live for these training logs, but it is just not my thing.
I am more of a weekly reflective person when it comes to running. I like looking at the big picture from that week’s mileage and putting to words the common thread of that week’s training. Now that I have full control of my running and my husband now is my coach, I can do things differently. Starting today, Monday January 27th, 13 Mondays out from Boston, I will be posting weekly with mileage updates, workouts, fueling, things I am listening to, goals, and overall reflection to how I am feeling leading up to the big race.
Honestly, this is mostly for myself. It is my open training log; a way for me to look back and see progress. It is a way to keep me accountable to actually record all the training that I am doing. While the motive is entirely selfish, I do hope it can provide some interest to you, whether you would like to run a marathon in the future or just generally curious what training looks like for a post-collegiate, postpartum gal that still has running goals she is chasing after.
Since this is my first Monday post, I want to do a quick catch up on training so far. Since Christmas it has been all about base training. I am definitely starting this training cycle at a higher fitness level compared to last year. That being said, since July (SF Marathon) my mileage has been very low and inconsistent. I love to run, but I have realized my motivation to run comes from having a goal and something to actually train for. I don’t think I will ever be that person that runs just to run. There needs to be something on the calendar to prepare for. That is just how I operate. I am not going to run a tempo workout just for fun, it needs to be for a purpose.
This Boston Marathon training cycle really began right after Christmas, Dec. 26th, just under 4-months from the race. With lower mileage leading up to this point and only a few short tempos in preparation for the local turkey trot, I needed to first build my base back. Lance is coaching me, and I trust him completely. Every Sunday before bed, we will fill in the calendar together and he gives me my daily mileage and workouts for the week.
I am still pretty low in mileage. Last week was 45 miles, week before that 40, week before that 40, and the week before that 33. This whole month of January has been about building up a base and February and March will be all about getting to peak mileage and incorporating longer tempos and SPEED!
Base Training + First Workout
The reality of base training is that it not very fun or exciting. It is a lot of slow and painful miles. Like with a lot of life, it is the base phase that is essential for the more glorious and glamorous aspects. The boring and hard and slow miles lead to the fast and thrilling miles. Like a marathon, this early stage of training requires a tremendous amount of patience. These slow miles will lead to the fast ones. You just have to keep showing up. Keep logging those miles day in and day out. The exciting miles are on the horizon. They are coming.
Last week, I did my first workout.
2 miles warm-up, 4 miles tempo-ish pace, 2 miles cool down.
I say tempo-ish because for my goal marathon time, which I am just going to go ahead and put it out into words or I guess numbers…2:48, tempo pace would need to be around 6:04 pace. I am not there yet, so I ran goal race pace. Those four miles I was anywhere from 6:24-6:30 pace. And the truth is, it did not feel easy or natural or very comfortable. My normal logic of thinking is wow that is the pace I am expecting to hold for 26 miles? But after the workout, I felt confident. I know this is just the beginning. I have a confidence that in the next 3 months of training, I will get to the point where I can hold 6:24 for 26 miles. It will come together.
What I am Listening To
I have never been a fan of running with music. I have always taken pride in my ability to go out on a solo run and not rely on the company of a playlist or audiobook. This is all beginning to change now that I have AfterShokz headphones. I could literally go on on and on, but to keep it short: these headphones are seriously amazing.
Since getting these headphones, I have really been enjoying listening to things on my runs. It is making running feel a bit less lonely since I do the majority of training solo. So here is what I have been listening to during last week’s mileage:
The Playlist of My Miles
Road to Olympic Trials- Jared Ward- Ep. 39 This one got me excited about my own goal and reminded me the power of goal-setting, especially for running. He talks about creating exciting goals that get you out of bed training, but also do not produce anxiety. It is a balance of creating goals that feel like big reaches, but also at the same time feel obtainable. He also talks about his mantra for Boston 2019, which was “Because I Can.” This inspired me to come up with a mantra I can use to pull me through the tough miles in the race. Still need to figure out what that is.
Road to Olympic Trials- Ann Mazur- Ep. 36 As I listened to this and ran park loops at 6-something am, I felt so inspired. She just qualified for the trials with a 2:44! The part that really inspired me was how her mileage is more similar to mine. She does not run crazy high mileage and does a ton of yoga. You really should listen to this. It is a great reminder of the importance of being an overall well-balanced athlete and human. It is not just about the miles.
Road to the Olympic Trials- Peter Bromka- Ep. 33 This episode was another powerful one for me in my training 2 weeks ago. It reminded me of the beauty in chasing after dreams and it also reminded me of the heartbreak that can come when you fall literally 2 seconds short. A beautiful episode that I will definitely carry with me to Boston.
Ali on the Run Show- Ep. 199 This is my other go-to podcast to listen to on the run. She usually interviews runners, but this one was about looking ahead to 2020 and I can specifically remember running up a hill with half a mile left in my run and feeling inspired and thankful for her own intentions and goals that got my on wheels churning.
And last, but most certainly not least, Taylor Swift’s Reputation album on shuffle for the segment of miles I ran a bit faster. Literally, when “Ready for It” comes on, I start sprinting.
Can you guess a goal I may or may not have for 2024 from what I am listening to?? Not quite ready to type it into words, but you might be able to connect the dots.
How I am Fueling
Coconut water every day.
Kirkland protein bars.
Coach’s Oats with brown sugar + banana pre-run.
Toasted everything bagel with whipped cream cheese post-run (emphasis on whipped!).
When I am Running
6:30 am park loops to get in soft surface and get a run in without the jogger.
Later morning runs with our NEW BLUE BOB jogger. If you have run with me with our old orange 2008 BOB, you know why this is so exciting. I have written about running with the jogger in the past, so you can find running with baby tips here. Now that I have an active toddler, those tips have changed slightly, so I plan on putting together a running with toddler guide soon!
Goal is to make it into my local Yogaworks studio 3 times a week. This past week I went to 2 TRX, core-based classes and Friday went to restorative yoga. This is a perfect balance for me. It is the perfect blend of intense and relaxing. The restorative class with the essential oils and long-holding poses is my new favorite way to enter the long run. It gets my body ready for the long, grueling miles less than 24-hours in my future. I actually am attributing the restorative class to be a key factor in my 14 miler feeling so good.
What I Keep Telling Myself
Slow Miles Lead to Fast Miles.
My biggest focus at this point in training in to stay patient. I am getting a bit antsy with such slow and low mileage, but I know this is all part of the plan.
High + Low
With any week, there is always the good and the bad. Training is no different.
First workout back and the deep confidence it reminded me I have.
The long run.
Falling on my run home and crying. Hello, Buzz Lightyear bandaid!
The Long Run
Last Saturday marked the first 14-miler of this training block and it actually felt really great. I can distinctively remember how I felt after my first 14-miler for the SF marathon training block. And let’s just say, I was on the couch for most of the day and was whining to Lance about how terrible I felt. This first-time 14-miler was a different story. I drank some coconut water, ate my bar, picked up our boy, and we were off to the Children’s Museum. These miles did not stick me on the couch, like last time! My body is definitely more used to the miles even at this earlier stage in training, so this is encouraging!
One of the great joys of the long run is getting to look over all the miles after the fact. It is always amazing to me that I run significantly faster on these runs compared to my regular run in the week. There is something about these long PV runs. It could be the extra company or those beautiful cliff views or the fact that the long run is ingrained as super important in my brain. Whatever it is, I love it.
The Long Run in Numbers
9:20 first mile, 7:00 last mile
As I was looking over each mile, I noticed that the first mile was the slowest and the 14th mile was my fastest mile. If you run in PV, you know this is partially because that first mile is an uphill trail and the last one is downhill and on the road, but still, I love how I am starting slow and finishing fast. This is definitely going to be goal for all the long runs in this training block. Finish strong.
Recently I have been writing a lot about motherhood things, but today I would like to spend some time on running. It has been nearly two months since the marathon, which is a bit crazy to me. Time is moving. In those two months, my running has been very minimal. I have been very slowly returning to it. I still take a few days off from running per week and have only had two longer runs (10 and 12 miles, respectively) since the race. And I am totally good with this slow return back to higher mileage and greater intensity. I am embracing this off-season. I am approaching this topic of the off-season from a running perspective, but the truth is, no matter what we do, we need time to step away from the high intensity of it all.
Just within the past couple weeks I have become more consistent with my runs. I have mentioned this on here before but I will map out when and how much I will run on Sunday before the week gets going. Even if it is just me writing down mileage in pencil in my floral planner, you better believe I will hit that mileage. If it is written, it is happening. It is this type of intensity and commitment that really got me through the tough days of marathon training when I did not have a team or a coach.
Two Fridays ago, I adjusted my mileage. That day I was supposed to run 6 miles. The run started later than I typically like, and it was already incredibly hot out. I was pushing the jogger and within my first few steps I could sense it was going to be a bad run. That first mile is usually a pretty good indicator for me on how the rest of the run will go. In mile one, I already felt so sluggish and weak. I could have pushed through and ran the full 6. Instead, I listened to my body and in the middle of my park loops told Hudson that we were running home. I told him that mommy was hot, tired, and weak. I made an adjustment.
In college, it was all about pushing and proving. This mentality is something that is still within me. To some degree, I love this about myself, but there are days where I need to remind myself that I am not a collegiate runner or a pro runner. I am a mom. I can have days off, days where I run less, days where I just jog. This holding back and listening to my body is hard for me. I am running such low mileage right now without any workouts, and if I am honest, I feel guilty. It feels like I am slacking, and that I should be doing more.
Make Future Goals
These feelings are rather funny because I literally have no need to run at all. I have no coach or team, but these pressurized feelings that have been placed on running seem to not easily be shaken. And I am okay with this to some degree. I feel like I still have a lot left in my legs. I want to still push and prove; however, it is just going to look different and there will be more adjustments, especially in these months where the focus is not all about training. I have a few other things on my plate right now that I am prioritizing over miles.
Right now, I am just running to run, but currently trying to figure out a couple races to put on the calendar before Boston! That is one big, exciting thing that I have not mentioned on here yet. Two weeks ago, Lance and I registered for the Boston Marathon. This has been the goal motivating me since the spring and it is so exciting to see it all coming to fruition. It is 7 months away, which worries me slightly because who knows what will happen in those months, but if it is aligned with God’s will, I can’t wait to show up to the start line at Boston. This date of April 20th excites me because it gives me a clear indicator of something to train for and it will help pull me out of my current off-season.
All this to say, set big goals for yourself. Chase after them wholeheartedly, but don’t be afraid to adjust along the way. Don’t be afraid to run slow to eventually run fast. Don’t be afraid to run less to eventually run more. It is so easy to let the dreams and goals take over. It is easy to feel like we should push, push, push. But we all need an off-season. We ultimately, need to slow down.
Off-Seasons are for Everyone
This relates to you if you are a runner or not. We need time away from high intensity and high output. We need a season that is off. If you are like me, you will keep running, keep doing the thing that you love, but it will not takeover your days in quite the same way it does when you are in the peak of training. These off-seasons are tough because it feels like too slow and too low, but I firmly believe it is these times that will ultimately allow for big things to happen for later seasons to come.